It hurts so much.
This is just a rant journal I'll delete by morning, but it's been something that has weighed on my heart very heavily...
I hear a lot of people in a group very precious to me being abused, treated badly, encountering problems with other members,
and it hurts.
It truly does and I hate how every time I hear of anything going wrong, it is too late.
I don't know how to explain the pain? It just feels like my heart is squeezed to the point of nearly exploding and tearing apart, its pain infecting my chest and throbbing outward OTL
I'm eager for this semester to end, so I can hang in chats and maybe catch whatever these problems are? I'm too bust to be in the group chat now, but maybe whatever happens to my precious members is outside of chats?
I don't know, I never hear any of it...
Which is likely what hurts most.
No one ever comes to us, a few do, and we try to help when we can, and when we can be sure, but otherwise no one comes and I feel utterly helpless. I feel like I am sitting behind some wall waiting for a little letter to come through a slit. Yet that letter never comes.
I love when people contact me for the group, I love answering questions, helping people have a better easier time, and I love being there for someone.
So if you're having problems in this group, anyone bothering you, if another mod is being unfair, or any questions, please feel free to note me personally, I promise no matter how busy I am, I will get to you!
And if you are dealing with any kind of situation that makes you uncomfortable, please try to get a screen shot!
But if you do not have one, please come anyway! I can keep an eye out! The mods can keep an eye out!
I just want to help, and make a happy environment...